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see, sometimes life is so similar, so routine that in 5 months i still don’t have any BIG ISSUES to share with you all. well yes, there were several times i tend to write, which i didn’t… perhaps because i thought it wasn’t so COOL or i didn’t have much time to finish it or i lost my desire to write

okay, first of all, i will just write the idea of the articles i didn’t finish:
1 last 18 june 2007 was my first wedding anniversary: i just want to say that i never thought being married’s SO easy like this. thanks to my lovely hubby. well, i never thought it would be so hard also, but now i feel that I enjoy my marriage life

2 talking about marriage, it is only a title: instead of growing up/mature, we bought PS2 and spending eachday gaming together. thanks to old games: snoopy, noddy, rampage, metal sludge, asterix, metropolis, CNK also to famous games: grand theft auto, test drive, the sims 2 and so on…

3 it’s never too late too learn: i want to learn how to play piano months ago when i visited my older sister she had just bought a keyboard. i tried to play “Twinkle2 Little Star” according to the Piano book, fuih IT’S JUST THAT HARD so i decided i will learn piano. next month i will buy keyboard, still confuse between Casio300 or Yamaha313. Any suggestion?

4 again, seeing this 5 months without any articles, well.. how ordinary my life is if i don’t write today, i guess it would still be the same in the next 5 months… i wish i can make each day more than just a bunch of grumble at work, a game-day at home, an ordinary lovely day with hubby. so there is something to share eachday. hmmm.. how to?

5 well, simpsons-the movie, is still the best movie keep your laughs for the movie

once upon a time, man wanted to fly. he had no wings. he tried to fly. he kept the dream alive. centuries later, he flies.
once upon a time in a kingdom, man flies. he flies too often. he forgets how to maintain his wings. he forgets how to maintain his body. he becomes too tired. his wings become too fragile. one day, his wings broken. one day, his body couldn’t support him anymore. one day, he couldn’t be able to fly anymore. he wished he had maintained his wings routinely. he wished he had taken care of his body better.

once upon a time, man needed tools. he found woods. he built ships. he built houses. he burned woods for fire.
once upon a time in a kingdom, man has a lot of tools to make life easier. he builds anything. he builds too often. he forgets how to maintain his forests. he forgets woods need time to grow. he forgets the root of the woods keep his kingdom land in strength. one day his land crashed by flood, the highland crashed as low as the land. he wished he had more attention to his forest. he wished he had plant more seeds for woods. he wished he had not take too much from his forests.

once upon a time in a kingdom, a man shouts at his creator. he is angry. his kingdom now is no longer as glorious at it was. the rest of the flood created frightening a landmark. too sad to be seen. a lot of people died. he is angry for what he thought his creator sent him. he forgets it was his man who forgets to maintain his wings, his body, his woods, his forests.

he forgets that he is a creation. anytime his creator would like him to come back home, he should be there. he has no choice, instead he has to be prepared. nobody ever said that it would be easy to be prepared. but he has to try for his own good.

once upon a time, i am the man. i have just realize that i have to be prepared also. cause i will never know when the time will come. cause i want my self to be ready when the time has come.

well, all i want to say is: government is no god.

most moments we blame our government for what they do, most moments we forget to look at ourselves.

rarely i am stand for government. but on flood days, the topic: ‘it is government’s false’ highly raised around medias.

‘they dont help us’, ‘they give us nothing’, ‘they did nothing to city plan’, ‘we trapped here for days, where are they?’, ‘no rescue from government’

d-oh (homer simpson’s style)

did you listen when they ask us to keep our area clean? did you obey when they ask us to put rubbish into the garbage? no, it’s not a SMALL thing. i throwed a piece of plastic to small river, you throwed a piece of plastic outside your house, he did the same, she did the same, all the people do this small thing. then we have A LARGE AMOUNT of plastic around…
it’s not a small thing, it’s the BASIC thing, a part of responsibility.

government is the representative of us that have to think more, do more, being paid more (hehehe), blamed more all about our condition. flood, food, basic salary, weather, transportation, crime etc. okay that is what they are for. to do more since they are part of us that had been chosen.

now, do you really think helping people is their responsibility only? they are small in number than us. perhaps they are kilometers from the victims. instead, the victims can only meters away from our own houses. why not we help our own people instead of blaming government?

two hands (mostfully) each of us have would be more meanfull if we use it to hand-in-hand help our own people. two hands could be more usefull than just pointing to government, shouting to them.

two hands of mine. this year, i did nothing. i didn’t throw rubbish outside the garbage, i didn’t help my own people also. i wish these two hands of mine will be more usefull than they are now…

lately someone told me this: why God let bad things happened to me recently

i – the one that lazy enough to go to church (btw, that is the reason one of my new year’s resolution is go to church everyweek) – am really disagree with the opinion. i believe no bad thing comes from God. i believe only good thing comes from God.

the faith lead me to another question: then where does bad thing come from?

okay, here’s my only theory:
this world, the place we live, was contained with so many people those who were alive or still alive. each time we do thing to our world, everyone in the same world will be affected.

let me bring some examples here:
1. Mr. X, a driver who follows all the sign on the street, suddenly Mr. Y, a sleepy-drunk-too fast driver hit him. i hope you get my point. Mr. X did nothing wrong, but what Mr. Y did causing the innocent Mr. X hit.
2. Ms. X who lived on the same road with Ms. Y throwed all her rubbish to small river near her house. On rain season, all houses around the river flooded by water because Ms. X’s rubbish blocked water flow.
3. the previous generation of our people (and also our generation) started any accidentally cruel projects that damage our ozone layer… nowadays we experience the effects; i don’t have to mention them.

now, you see… there is how this world works, i guess…

each aspect, no matter how small the aspect, it will make a change to our world, then the world would be synchronized with the change. and so on….

so start do good things, leave bad things, we know each bad thing we do will damage our world. anyway, you dan i, we live in the same world, don’t we?

i do believe dreams are so important for human being. i really think that dreams are part of our existance, as a keeper of it.

when i look around, some of stuffs really remind me that they were made based on the dreams. they belonged to someone’s dream times ago, they belong to our lives right now.
lately stuff as an example is 3G technology. years ago we watched startrek and they had that 3G technology on board they talked among ships with 3G technology
and now we, earth people talk by 3G technology, well which expensive enough after all the promo i guess :p
you see? that is how our lives do. i dream about something, i tell you my dream, you tell anyone else, she/he thinks better about my dream, convert it to an idea, someone does the analysis, oneday somebody make my dream real

i am sure it is one of the scenario why people survive this far. keep on dreaming to stay alive!

but sometimes, it is hard to separate between impossible-dreams-for-now and usefull-dreams-for-now.
impossible-dreams-for-now, ie: teleport or flying man. usefull-dreams-for-now, ie. i wanna finish the development of this software by end of this month.
you know, sometimes dreams are not only dreams. sometimes dreams are your hope, sometimes dreams are your inner strength, sometimes dreams are inspiration, sometimes dreams are ourselves

the usefull ones, you could make it to strengthen yourself, to motivate yourself, but be carefull when you hold on to your dream. dreams are not real, yet. do not bet all you have in reality for the dreams, unless you are a good gambler dreams are guidelines, you have to calculate your power, your ability, your strength so you know could you or not reach your dream right now. when you could not yet, do not worry too much: the dreams will still remain there since dreams are immortal, only you could fade away your own dreams.

A dream is the experience of envisioned images, sounds, or other sensations during sleep. The events of dreams are often impossible or unlikely to occur in physical reality, and are usually outside the control of the dreamer. The exception is lucid dreaming, in which a dreamer realizes that he or she is dreaming—being sometimes even capable of changing the oneiric reality around him or her and controlling various aspects of the dream, in which the suspension of disbelief is broken.[citation needed] Dreamers may experience strong emotions while dreaming. Frightening or upsetting dreams are referred to as nightmares. The scientific discipline of dream research is oneirology (a definition from wikipedia)

(sing as happy birthday song)
mau masak e-mie
mau masak e-mie
masak e-mie buat sua-mie
.....
looking for words with “-mie” phrase
.....
sua-mie yang kayak cu-mie

and my dearest lovely hubby protested

AHH!! i remind a word with “-mie” phrase my hubby’s name :p
how could i forget?

ok, here more lines for the happy birthday song:

mau masak e-mie
mau masak e-mie
masak e-mie buat sua-mie
yang namanya **-mie

happy birthday my dearest husband. wishing you a happy healthy wealthy life…

what do you want for your birthday, i asked.

i want you to be happy, he replied.

and i am happy, so my husband is happy, and up there Our-Creator is happy too by seeing us happyly praying to Him, what a life

to kris and fanny,
i said my prayer for you, the new couple God has brought.
wish for you all the happiness as a couple become one.

just the way i feel it each time, with my beloved husband…

and thank you Lord, for each love You share with the world!

years ago i have jumped to a conclusion:
He gives you darkness, so you become aware of the amazing light…
He pours you rain, so you become aware of the blessing sunny day…
He lets you down, so you become aware of the nice happy day…
He introduces you black, so you become aware of the pure white…

now i still feel the same:
He lets me live years of riot, so I become aware of the amazing peacefull life…
He lets me know others, so I become aware of the lovely soulmate to choose… ( i found him!)
He lets me hate some people, so I become aware about the need of others…

my last article about miracles spontaneously triggering some protest and advice.
first of all, i know miracles is God’s but i believe miracles wouldn’t come for nothing. i have to do things from my side, and hopefully God will fulfill the other side by miracle. a miracle is more than enough for me.

from the protest and advice, i learn some points: – some people with better conditions tend to forget about how blessed they are. if i was there, next time i will try to realize and thankfull for the blesses. – miracle is everywhere. sometimes i miss to identify them. yes yes, i know, most of the time (after my teenage time) i see my life as a bunch full of miracles. a lot of ‘only God can do that’ things happened to me and i believe they’re still happening. but…. – sometimes what we need is to look at everything from other side. instead of hoping that, i could wishing i am ok with this. and so on… – each moment in my life, there are chances to support this world better. the real problem is how big my heart is to understand it and being part of it. – most of all, i thank you, it is very important to know that people do care about others.

and also, since i am as much human as each of us, sometimes i fail to learn. sometimes i grumble too often. sometimes i dream too far. sometimes i wish too much. sometimes i am angry about life. sometimes i do all the bad things, i feel all the bad mood.

the other times i thank God for letting me exist in this world.

when i can only see nothing but darkness, the only greatness i have is my precious Lord.
am i too proud of myself, that i could only remember my precious Lord when the black-lightning cloud stays above me?

i wish that i have the strength faith, so as the bible said, when i tell mountain to move, it will.
i wish i could believe that miracles are really exists. well, i believe it, but also i feel that miracles are someting so rare, nearly impossible to be happened to me. after all, who am i that brave enough to expect such a miracle?

and i have no idea, where to find the miracle? whose hands will bring me the miracle i need? if only there is a way that i can chat online to my precious Lord, i will ask. but there is no way to do that.

if you know anyone that brought miracles in the name of my precious Lord, please tell me. i need him/her as soon as possible. also right away when i am typing this blog, i feel that i couldn’t push miracles to be happened as my wish.

well.. miracles please come visit me anytime you thought i am deserved it. or better, miracles teach me how so i deserve you in my life.

i am so longing for miracles…