ethe’s

to kris and fanny,
i said my prayer for you, the new couple God has brought.
wish for you all the happiness as a couple become one.

just the way i feel it each time, with my beloved husband…

and thank you Lord, for each love You share with the world!

years ago i have jumped to a conclusion:
He gives you darkness, so you become aware of the amazing light…
He pours you rain, so you become aware of the blessing sunny day…
He lets you down, so you become aware of the nice happy day…
He introduces you black, so you become aware of the pure white…

now i still feel the same:
He lets me live years of riot, so I become aware of the amazing peacefull life…
He lets me know others, so I become aware of the lovely soulmate to choose… ( i found him!)
He lets me hate some people, so I become aware about the need of others…

my last article about miracles spontaneously triggering some protest and advice.
first of all, i know miracles is God’s but i believe miracles wouldn’t come for nothing. i have to do things from my side, and hopefully God will fulfill the other side by miracle. a miracle is more than enough for me.

from the protest and advice, i learn some points: – some people with better conditions tend to forget about how blessed they are. if i was there, next time i will try to realize and thankfull for the blesses. – miracle is everywhere. sometimes i miss to identify them. yes yes, i know, most of the time (after my teenage time) i see my life as a bunch full of miracles. a lot of ‘only God can do that’ things happened to me and i believe they’re still happening. but…. – sometimes what we need is to look at everything from other side. instead of hoping that, i could wishing i am ok with this. and so on… – each moment in my life, there are chances to support this world better. the real problem is how big my heart is to understand it and being part of it. – most of all, i thank you, it is very important to know that people do care about others.

and also, since i am as much human as each of us, sometimes i fail to learn. sometimes i grumble too often. sometimes i dream too far. sometimes i wish too much. sometimes i am angry about life. sometimes i do all the bad things, i feel all the bad mood.

the other times i thank God for letting me exist in this world.

when i can only see nothing but darkness, the only greatness i have is my precious Lord.
am i too proud of myself, that i could only remember my precious Lord when the black-lightning cloud stays above me?

i wish that i have the strength faith, so as the bible said, when i tell mountain to move, it will.
i wish i could believe that miracles are really exists. well, i believe it, but also i feel that miracles are someting so rare, nearly impossible to be happened to me. after all, who am i that brave enough to expect such a miracle?

and i have no idea, where to find the miracle? whose hands will bring me the miracle i need? if only there is a way that i can chat online to my precious Lord, i will ask. but there is no way to do that.

if you know anyone that brought miracles in the name of my precious Lord, please tell me. i need him/her as soon as possible. also right away when i am typing this blog, i feel that i couldn’t push miracles to be happened as my wish.

well.. miracles please come visit me anytime you thought i am deserved it. or better, miracles teach me how so i deserve you in my life.

i am so longing for miracles…