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see, sometimes life is so similar, so routine that in 5 months i still don’t have any BIG ISSUES to share with you all. well yes, there were several times i tend to write, which i didn’t… perhaps because i thought it wasn’t so COOL or i didn’t have much time to finish it or i lost my desire to write

okay, first of all, i will just write the idea of the articles i didn’t finish:
1 last 18 june 2007 was my first wedding anniversary: i just want to say that i never thought being married’s SO easy like this. thanks to my lovely hubby. well, i never thought it would be so hard also, but now i feel that I enjoy my marriage life

2 talking about marriage, it is only a title: instead of growing up/mature, we bought PS2 and spending eachday gaming together. thanks to old games: snoopy, noddy, rampage, metal sludge, asterix, metropolis, CNK also to famous games: grand theft auto, test drive, the sims 2 and so on…

3 it’s never too late too learn: i want to learn how to play piano months ago when i visited my older sister she had just bought a keyboard. i tried to play “Twinkle2 Little Star” according to the Piano book, fuih IT’S JUST THAT HARD so i decided i will learn piano. next month i will buy keyboard, still confuse between Casio300 or Yamaha313. Any suggestion?

4 again, seeing this 5 months without any articles, well.. how ordinary my life is if i don’t write today, i guess it would still be the same in the next 5 months… i wish i can make each day more than just a bunch of grumble at work, a game-day at home, an ordinary lovely day with hubby. so there is something to share eachday. hmmm.. how to?

5 well, simpsons-the movie, is still the best movie keep your laughs for the movie

well, all i want to say is: government is no god.

most moments we blame our government for what they do, most moments we forget to look at ourselves.

rarely i am stand for government. but on flood days, the topic: ‘it is government’s false’ highly raised around medias.

‘they dont help us’, ‘they give us nothing’, ‘they did nothing to city plan’, ‘we trapped here for days, where are they?’, ‘no rescue from government’

d-oh (homer simpson’s style)

did you listen when they ask us to keep our area clean? did you obey when they ask us to put rubbish into the garbage? no, it’s not a SMALL thing. i throwed a piece of plastic to small river, you throwed a piece of plastic outside your house, he did the same, she did the same, all the people do this small thing. then we have A LARGE AMOUNT of plastic around…
it’s not a small thing, it’s the BASIC thing, a part of responsibility.

government is the representative of us that have to think more, do more, being paid more (hehehe), blamed more all about our condition. flood, food, basic salary, weather, transportation, crime etc. okay that is what they are for. to do more since they are part of us that had been chosen.

now, do you really think helping people is their responsibility only? they are small in number than us. perhaps they are kilometers from the victims. instead, the victims can only meters away from our own houses. why not we help our own people instead of blaming government?

two hands (mostfully) each of us have would be more meanfull if we use it to hand-in-hand help our own people. two hands could be more usefull than just pointing to government, shouting to them.

two hands of mine. this year, i did nothing. i didn’t throw rubbish outside the garbage, i didn’t help my own people also. i wish these two hands of mine will be more usefull than they are now…

i do believe dreams are so important for human being. i really think that dreams are part of our existance, as a keeper of it.

when i look around, some of stuffs really remind me that they were made based on the dreams. they belonged to someone’s dream times ago, they belong to our lives right now.
lately stuff as an example is 3G technology. years ago we watched startrek and they had that 3G technology on board they talked among ships with 3G technology
and now we, earth people talk by 3G technology, well which expensive enough after all the promo i guess :p
you see? that is how our lives do. i dream about something, i tell you my dream, you tell anyone else, she/he thinks better about my dream, convert it to an idea, someone does the analysis, oneday somebody make my dream real

i am sure it is one of the scenario why people survive this far. keep on dreaming to stay alive!

but sometimes, it is hard to separate between impossible-dreams-for-now and usefull-dreams-for-now.
impossible-dreams-for-now, ie: teleport or flying man. usefull-dreams-for-now, ie. i wanna finish the development of this software by end of this month.
you know, sometimes dreams are not only dreams. sometimes dreams are your hope, sometimes dreams are your inner strength, sometimes dreams are inspiration, sometimes dreams are ourselves

the usefull ones, you could make it to strengthen yourself, to motivate yourself, but be carefull when you hold on to your dream. dreams are not real, yet. do not bet all you have in reality for the dreams, unless you are a good gambler dreams are guidelines, you have to calculate your power, your ability, your strength so you know could you or not reach your dream right now. when you could not yet, do not worry too much: the dreams will still remain there since dreams are immortal, only you could fade away your own dreams.

A dream is the experience of envisioned images, sounds, or other sensations during sleep. The events of dreams are often impossible or unlikely to occur in physical reality, and are usually outside the control of the dreamer. The exception is lucid dreaming, in which a dreamer realizes that he or she is dreaming—being sometimes even capable of changing the oneiric reality around him or her and controlling various aspects of the dream, in which the suspension of disbelief is broken.[citation needed] Dreamers may experience strong emotions while dreaming. Frightening or upsetting dreams are referred to as nightmares. The scientific discipline of dream research is oneirology (a definition from wikipedia)

to kris and fanny,
i said my prayer for you, the new couple God has brought.
wish for you all the happiness as a couple become one.

just the way i feel it each time, with my beloved husband…

and thank you Lord, for each love You share with the world!

years ago i have jumped to a conclusion:
He gives you darkness, so you become aware of the amazing light…
He pours you rain, so you become aware of the blessing sunny day…
He lets you down, so you become aware of the nice happy day…
He introduces you black, so you become aware of the pure white…

now i still feel the same:
He lets me live years of riot, so I become aware of the amazing peacefull life…
He lets me know others, so I become aware of the lovely soulmate to choose… ( i found him!)
He lets me hate some people, so I become aware about the need of others…

my last article about miracles spontaneously triggering some protest and advice.
first of all, i know miracles is God’s but i believe miracles wouldn’t come for nothing. i have to do things from my side, and hopefully God will fulfill the other side by miracle. a miracle is more than enough for me.

from the protest and advice, i learn some points: – some people with better conditions tend to forget about how blessed they are. if i was there, next time i will try to realize and thankfull for the blesses. – miracle is everywhere. sometimes i miss to identify them. yes yes, i know, most of the time (after my teenage time) i see my life as a bunch full of miracles. a lot of ‘only God can do that’ things happened to me and i believe they’re still happening. but…. – sometimes what we need is to look at everything from other side. instead of hoping that, i could wishing i am ok with this. and so on… – each moment in my life, there are chances to support this world better. the real problem is how big my heart is to understand it and being part of it. – most of all, i thank you, it is very important to know that people do care about others.

and also, since i am as much human as each of us, sometimes i fail to learn. sometimes i grumble too often. sometimes i dream too far. sometimes i wish too much. sometimes i am angry about life. sometimes i do all the bad things, i feel all the bad mood.

the other times i thank God for letting me exist in this world.

people say nowadays is the time when individualistic becomes a trend of living style.
wherever you are: houses, real estates, apartments, offices there are not so much smiles and greets as we had years ago.
i believe it’s not about being independent, able to do things by ourselves. we focus more about money since money being the most thing to live with. to get more money, we work more, we have less time to spend with people. we create our own walls between ourselves and people.
but that would never be it!
the necessity to share our lives with others is somehow important for us to keep us as alive as human being.
then we have these blogs to share stories, photograps…
then we chat with unknown people about unimportant things..
then we realize, deep down in our hearts, we need others to live with… now!

last monday is our first cinema time after our wedding. we chose “click”. the movie was either funny, sad, affecting and full of morale.

1.the death angel said that good man deserved another chance.
as far as i know, sometimes we don’t have another chance in real world.
but the more i think, i found out perhaps we are the one who should create our own chance since chances are not always given.

2.family is the most priority in life
this sounds an old quote, but it is always be true. to be honest, nowadays it is more difficult to keep our family as the first thing. i also feel the same way. most friday afternoon my boss asks me if i was available to work on saturday. so far, most friday afternoon i said NO. also thinking about my parents and parents in law which stay in other cities. how often can i visit them, considering the costs for the plane, time we spent on the road, gasolines etc. but this movie reminds us about this important rule.

3.do it now!
sometimes we think we could control time. we tend to postpone things we don’t like as long as we could. and BANG! everything goes beyond our control, and there would be not enough time to fix all of them. so do it now, while you can.

last tuesday i went around jakarta.. actually i lost while looking for a street…
it is always nice to get around with my husband, we also enjoy the time when we lost the way…

dreaming about being rich, don’t have to go to work each day on weekday. what a beautiful life…
dreaming about we have enough money that could support our lives by its interests only. what will you do then, my husband asked me, won’t you be boring without your job?

i said, i want to do a lot of things when i didn’t have anything to do…

i will buy a printing machine then find any order for the machine and do it by myself. just for fun, i said to my husband.
there are a lot of things i want to try to do just for fun, not for living, i said.
he said, later we would be able to write a book about some business that we have tried for fun based on our experiences…

on the way where a lot of skycrapers beside us…
i want to clean one of the window cleaner on the building also, i said.
but.. you are afraid of the height, aren’t you, my husband asked.
yes.. but i will only clean the lower floors only, i answered.
he said, who will take you as the employee by considering your phobia of height?

no, i said, nobody will. i will clean the window of my own building!

you dream too far… my husband smiled at me, i was only dreaming having enough money to support our living, not having a building.

dream is always as free as breathing… i can dream anything i want.

a day after: i think about our dreams.

would it be the same when someday i, the owner of the skycraper, pass through that skycrapers road again? what kind of dreams i will have by the time?

(people change. “coz nothing last forever, even though november rain,” axl rose sang)

just like what my lovely dad always says: – each word comes from my mouth is a prayer for my life – each act i made is a harmony to be synchronized with the universe

so, why not starting only saying good prayers instead of grumbling?