ethe’s

once upon a time, man wanted to fly. he had no wings. he tried to fly. he kept the dream alive. centuries later, he flies.
once upon a time in a kingdom, man flies. he flies too often. he forgets how to maintain his wings. he forgets how to maintain his body. he becomes too tired. his wings become too fragile. one day, his wings broken. one day, his body couldn’t support him anymore. one day, he couldn’t be able to fly anymore. he wished he had maintained his wings routinely. he wished he had taken care of his body better.

once upon a time, man needed tools. he found woods. he built ships. he built houses. he burned woods for fire.
once upon a time in a kingdom, man has a lot of tools to make life easier. he builds anything. he builds too often. he forgets how to maintain his forests. he forgets woods need time to grow. he forgets the root of the woods keep his kingdom land in strength. one day his land crashed by flood, the highland crashed as low as the land. he wished he had more attention to his forest. he wished he had plant more seeds for woods. he wished he had not take too much from his forests.

once upon a time in a kingdom, a man shouts at his creator. he is angry. his kingdom now is no longer as glorious at it was. the rest of the flood created frightening a landmark. too sad to be seen. a lot of people died. he is angry for what he thought his creator sent him. he forgets it was his man who forgets to maintain his wings, his body, his woods, his forests.

he forgets that he is a creation. anytime his creator would like him to come back home, he should be there. he has no choice, instead he has to be prepared. nobody ever said that it would be easy to be prepared. but he has to try for his own good.

once upon a time, i am the man. i have just realize that i have to be prepared also. cause i will never know when the time will come. cause i want my self to be ready when the time has come.

lately someone told me this: why God let bad things happened to me recently

i – the one that lazy enough to go to church (btw, that is the reason one of my new year’s resolution is go to church everyweek) – am really disagree with the opinion. i believe no bad thing comes from God. i believe only good thing comes from God.

the faith lead me to another question: then where does bad thing come from?

okay, here’s my only theory:
this world, the place we live, was contained with so many people those who were alive or still alive. each time we do thing to our world, everyone in the same world will be affected.

let me bring some examples here:
1. Mr. X, a driver who follows all the sign on the street, suddenly Mr. Y, a sleepy-drunk-too fast driver hit him. i hope you get my point. Mr. X did nothing wrong, but what Mr. Y did causing the innocent Mr. X hit.
2. Ms. X who lived on the same road with Ms. Y throwed all her rubbish to small river near her house. On rain season, all houses around the river flooded by water because Ms. X’s rubbish blocked water flow.
3. the previous generation of our people (and also our generation) started any accidentally cruel projects that damage our ozone layer… nowadays we experience the effects; i don’t have to mention them.

now, you see… there is how this world works, i guess…

each aspect, no matter how small the aspect, it will make a change to our world, then the world would be synchronized with the change. and so on….

so start do good things, leave bad things, we know each bad thing we do will damage our world. anyway, you dan i, we live in the same world, don’t we?

there are so many ways for us to learn about life. each person we met, each condition we were is a valuable natural teacher for us…
these last few days i learned much from taxi drivers…

first taxi driver:
“this taxi company is miserly! no wonder if the employees tend to ‘steal’ from the company”
morale -> listen to your heart… stealing is never a way out. if you don’t like the company, just find another.

second taxi driver:
“having enough money is the way we live our lives. when you have more money, you need more to spend. once you decided you have enough money, you do ”
morale -> happiness is right in the palm of my own hand.

third taxi driver:
“be prepared! save as much money as you could when you were young. just in case… you will never know. in case bad things happened, just enjoy. there must be away. ”
morale -> never give up. always one more try when you get down (reminds me of Manowar’s song.. hmm.. my fav one). prepare the path for your future, starting from now on!

well…. life is always about learning new things. i just wanna be the one that faced them with wide eyes open, brightly and full of spirit. be with me.

have you ever watch this movie called “The Truman Show”?

i watched it more than once. it’s so simple, but yet nowadays i think about similiar case. on the movie, this guy was “trapped” as the single star of a reality show. the idea of the movie was placing so many cameras so whatever this guy does, all the people could see. people then too involved with any personal feelings of this guy. the desperate, the anger etc.

the only way out was by sailing on the water, which he scared of. but one day he made it! everything is ended just by opening the door of the studio on the other side of the water. that’s all…

talking about the movie, people starting to chat about how entertainment is surrounding us. how we are “trapped” by any of the entertaining stuffs.

but a question for me is:
what if our lives is the same story as we have seen in “The Truman Show”?
what if what i needed is to open the right door across the sea?

then it would be easier to understand our lives. it is understandable to think why sometimes lives aren’t so fair

why good people are loose and bad people are the winner?
why lives are not so controlable by us?
why some people get the best luck and others don’t?
why some people easily get rich but some burried poorly?

and so on…

if anyone of us could find the right door: please just tell the rest of us…
so we can decide each by our own selves, do we want to keep this kind of trapped life, or just walkaway and break free to be our selves.

some people don’t like it. Hey that’s okay, i pray to my own Lord, if you say so. since for me, my own Lord and your Lord is the same God. even if we prayed for different Lord, why couldn’t i?

when i want to pray, should i explain to you first, the prayer is a relation between my Lord and me. and who you are, disturbing this private relation?

when you pray, i wouldn’t complain… just go ahead. talk to your Lord. i wouldn’t complain. i wouldn’t complain, and why should i?

if only you know, and i will let you know here, now. since i was young i was taught that we believe all the 5 legal religions in this country are the same true believers. it means, we believe all the 5 religions taught about good things to their people and also are the ways to the Lord. the same Lord, if you believe so

i do believe so.

and look, based on that concepts, look what i found out nowadays!
you, people, don’t even let me pray to the Lord.

but still, we taught and we believe, it’s not the religions that taught you to do such a weird thing (with only a purpose that is to stop us from praising the Lord). it’s the people. and it’s personal, not entirely people have the same mind and took the same weird way to praise the Lord.

and right now, i will pray (even you don’t want me to do) for you, people. may the Lord bless you and keep you. and may you find your own “awareness” that enlight your mind. people, please, remember, we are all the same people in the world. nothing higher nothing lower. and each of us is all nothing but also so precious to our Lord. why don’t we become one in unity?

peace for all of us, people!

have just came back from a hospital. a colleague has just had a new baby borned.
talked with her about having a baby, it seems a real struggle to have a cute small little baby to hold.

morethan one time i thought about any mommy around the world. what really surprised me is, how a gentle-mild-tender lady could be so brave involving a “life-or-death” battle at the first time she choose to have a baby? it’s so incredible! me, myself, i am affraid of such a battle

one of a colleague said it is predetermined for woman. so, just be a part of the process :p

i am just not so be able to accept it… is it because of predetermined so woman has to feel the pain? and so instead, what is predetermined for man?

to have a job and earn money to fulfill the needs of his family?
is that all? if that so, i said: woman could do it by herself.

and then… what else? i don’t know. to let woman feel comfort and safe? i really have no idea.

what i believe is: the Lord will never state injustice condition both for man and woman.

later, perhaps the Lord will let me know His purposes with this “predetermined”, if it is really a predetermined…

have you ever watch this movie, pay it forward?

i’ve watched it years ago, but there is something so beautiful about the movie i still interested about.

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i have to tell more here, since some people not too interested to find out about it by clicking the links i have put here…
the main idea of pay it forward is:
i do something nice/kind to 3 people, but instead of letting them pay it back to me, i just ask them to pay it forward..
it means, each of the 3 people then will do any nice thing to other 3 people and so on
and now you can calculate how many people involved. trust me, it will be easier to imagine by looking the diagram from the foundation site i mentioned below.]

i believe that the concept of pay it forward is something so visible. and i am sure the world would be much better when everybody tries to do such a thing.

and i am so surprise when i typed “pay it forward” on Google, and saw the result. WOW some people really do something to make the concept real. they established it as a “movement” and also a foundation.

i will need more times to read about them. see if the dream has come true and so on. but anyway, i really want to do it myself. doing nice things to people without a “what would i get by doing this” thinking.

friends, look at some sites i refer above, or easier just watch the movie .
find the main idea.

and hopefully, you can also find the beautiful dream about how simple it takes to make the world better.

nearly end of each month, it seems the perfect time to say HORRAY reminding that i will have my salary in my account in any days among.
and right after the HORRAY, i will have to pay rent for my (expensive but lovely :p ) room at once….
and also referring to any credit cards i have, i have to pay the bills also.
and soon i have not so much money from the whole salary that left in my bank account
well that’s okay as long as i still can smile and grin

and later before the end of each month, i will transfer what left in my bank account to another bank account as my saving money. not so much. that i haven’t been able to buy a house for my own, or even a new car that i wanted (not so, for truth. i prefer to have a house than a car).

well.. and people keep on saying that my job is great big company, nice salary and so on. so, keep it on my mind when i feel so low and down:
there are a lot of people that lives in different life style, perhaps better, perhaps worse, but they can live anyway they can smile and enjoy the same world, however.

and so should i. hey, why shouldn’t then?

say it that i sleep 8 hours a day (what a long sleep :p )
then i have 8 hours a day to work
an hour for lunch time
half an hour to go to office and going home from office…
i still have about 6,5 hours a day to do anything else…
what can i do to optimize the 6,5 hours so i can make my self better?

but i choose nothing positive: – i read any books i like – i watch any shows i like – i do nothing as i like it – i play any games i like

and what will i get?
me-years ago, me-now, me-years later is the same me!

and what about the world?
world-years ago, now and later will keep on spinning no matter i do, no matter i am.

should i need a moment to start on changing? so i can keep on spinning with the world?

when something changes too much
would’nt it be better to create from a scratch
than to identify the impacts and measure the effort then modify it to match the changes?